Man, there’s something magical watching
your kid from the outside in, witnessing her so full of life and so full of
joy. Today, I did just that, just observing my little girl from outside her pre-school
classroom, seeing her sitting there along with all the other little ones in her
class, all cute and happy and absorbed in their little lives.
There’s something indescribable about knowing
without question that your child is floating in her own little universe where nothing
dark or foreboding or sinister is at work and nothing detrimental can reach her.
There’s no danger looming. There aren’t threats imminent. She just exists in
this glorious and enthusiastic and enthralling place.
I wish more than anything I could wrap
that security and safety up and stow it away in her little backpack so that she
could take it wherever she went. She could whip it out when she felt frightened
or scared of the dark or lonely or overwhelmed and revel in instant pleasure.
I also wish more than anything I had
more time to just watch and observe, just let that joy consume me. When I went
into her classroom today after school was over and she so proudly showed me the
Mother’s Day card she painted all by herself, I pretty much melted into a pool
of pride and contentment. Watching her trying to contain her eagerness to give
her mom the card, along with a little plant she potted in a Dixie cup, was
about as much fun and pleasure as I’ve felt in months.
Life introduces a lot of obstacles and difficulties
and challenges throughout the day. Some days, in fact, it seems that is all
fills the hours. But man, if you just slow things down and live within the
minute without looking back at the last one or looking forward to the next one,
you’ll witness things that can brighten you. You’ll witness occurrences that
ooze beauty. Some days play out as being mundane and ordinary and anything but
special, but I’m recognizing it doesn’t take a once-a-year event or special day
like a wedding or birthday or holiday to induce happiness. Turn yourself over
to the possibilities and make yourself available to the opportunities and you
can have that goodness a hell of a lot more often than may seem possible.
My daughter teaching me something every
day without ever realizing it.
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