Monday, July 23, 2012

Day 204: Why, Coward, Why?


Why does it seem when one group of people has a problem with another group, the first group never addresses their problem in a man-to-man, woman-to-woman, or face-to-face fashion? There always seems some kind of four-on-one beatdown involved. It always seems so-and-so was jumped from behind. It always seems innocent bystander never saw it coming. There always seems like some kind of weapon involved. There always seems some kind of cowardly instance of violence taking place by some kind of coward who hides his face, waits until night to carry out the deed, or just doesn’t take a step without the odds being heavily in his favor.

If you need an example of the kind of chickensh*t courage I’m talking about, just read this touching account from the Lincoln Journal-Star of a situation that happened a few days ago in my city. It’s a heartwarming telling a heartwarming hate crime in which three upstanding males bumrushed a woman’s home and proceeded to do all kinds of neighborly things to her, including carve “homophobic slurs into her skin” and attempting to “light her house on fire.” Beautiful. Outstanding. Yet another example of the human race fulfilling its massive potential and demonstrating its prowess at being the most intelligent creature on earth.

Seriously, sometimes I’m embarrassed to be human. Sometimes, I’m embarrassed to be a man. Sometimes, I’d embarrassed that these kind of stories don’t surprise me, even when they occur right in my backyard. Nothing really surprises me anymore. Nothing. And that’s not a fact I like to readily admit. It’s not a reality I really want to embrace but have been forced to. I’m embarrassed to have to prepare my children to fend for themselves one day in such a world.

I have no idea what motivates a man to even think thoughts such as the ones involved in this case, let alone actually carry them out. I have no idea how it is that more than one man can gather around in a room and actually have a conversation with another man about doing such things to someone else. When did it ever become acceptable to utter, “Hey Larry, you know what would be riot to do tonight?” “No, Ted, what?” “Whatcha say you and me get us a can of gasoline, sharpen up our pocket knives, and scare the sh*t out of that lezbo across the street?” “Hee, hee. I’m with you, Ted. You know what would be even better. We should wear masks so no one will know who we are. We can’t have people actually holding us responsible for our actions, can we?” “Oh, hell no, Larry. Can’t have people look us in the eye and see the piece of sh*t they’re dealing with directly.”

OK, so there are at least three dimwits running freely around in my city. Know what’s even scarier? They aren’t alone. There more than likely is a good chunk of people who deep down are congratulating them, others who aren’t bothered in the least by what they did, and others still who might be repulsed but would never publicly say as much. Kudos to those who don’t belong to any of these groups.

I’d like to believe and trust that there’s a hell waiting for such people who run in packs because they lack the honor and integrity to face their miserable existences alone. I’m not convinced, though. What I am sure of is that these vacant souls have never tasted anything in the way of true self-respect, self-pride, self-accomplishment. Small consolation, but sadly, it’s about all I can come up today. For me, I’ll continue to teach my children the exact opposite. I’ll teach them to act alone and come to the aid of others, to not attack, and certainly not to stand tall only when you’re in the company of likeminded others, especially when the others of fricking idiots.

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